the boys first day

so, it was the boys first day of kindergarten.  i never understood why this was such a big deal.

WELL NOW I KNOW.

this morning was the most gut wrenching experience i have ever had.  so many thoughts went through my head.

“ARE THE GOING TO BE OK”

“WILL THEY BE POPULAR”

“WILL THEY BE PICKED ON”

“WILL THEY BEHAVE”

“HAVE I PREPARED THEM”

“PLEASE LET THEM REMEMBER THEIR ABC’S”

“PLEASE DON’T LET THEM HAVE ANY ACCIDENTS”

“CAN THEY HANDLE THIS”

“CAN I HANDLE THIS”

no phone calls so far, but what if they are just mildly freaking out so the teachers don’t want to worry me.  i miss them even though i do not normally see them now anyway.  i want to be there holding their hands.  the babies have been in the same class since teddy bear was 4.  we were asked if we wanted them in the same class, but for the poor teacher's sake we said no.  i wish we could have given them a trial period.  i am sad that they are alone.