Now a non-custodial pseudomom…but not the normal way

Babe, met a woman about a month ago.  She has a job and lives in a nice house…blah blah blah.  Well long story short he took the boys and is now living with her.

Our relationship had been over for a long while, but I would have stayed with him forever to raise my boys.  Now some other woman will get to tuck them in and say their bedtime stories and help them with their homework.  I would love to say that I was not dying right now, but I am.

I love my boys.  Babe says that I am still the closest thing that they have to a mom and that I can see them whenever I want, but I do not even get to know where they live, because the new woman knows I hate her and I guess thinks I would slash her tires or something (as if I would be that stupid).

I actually feel that this woman has done me a favor, but that doesn’t mean that I like females who act like they are your friends when they are really trying to take your family.

He holds all the cards and I have to behave myself.

Sick Baby :(

Teddy Bear was throwing up from 9PM to 1:30PM tonight (this morning, whatever). I felt helpless. Babe went out and got medicine, but the little guy kept going….every 15 minutes.

We tried to contact the M-Word…cause although she says they are on her insurance now we have never actually seen the cards and we wanted to go armed to the E-Room with more than, “I dunno.” However, we haven’t heard from her in a week and half so we know how well our calls were received, as in they weren’t. If she called us at 12 and then 1 AM, I think we would answer, even if she didn’t have the kids. We would know it was important.
Well, we were giving him the medicine every 15 minutes (as the instructions said). We also gave him a little water, cause even good tasting medicine still tastes like medicine.

Well, since we weren’t sure about the insurance (forget love, we should get married just so I can get the boys on my insurance), we decided to call the E-Room to make sure we were not jumping the gun. And you know what…it turns out that when a kid it throwing up you’re not supposed to give them liquids. Oops…we’ll know next time I guess.

Every time we were letting him have water to wash the meds down…it came back up.

Again…Woops

He is sleeping now, but he is talking in his sleep, so I know he still doesn’t feel yummy.

My Fellas

The BOYS are incredible Sugar is 6 and Teddy Bear is 5. They are 9.5 months apart (amazing right) and a handful. Sugar is so talented; he's going to be a famous baseball player someday. Teddy Bear is going to be a rock star. It amazes me that their mother only finds time for them a couple of hours a month. She always says that she wants to be part of their lives, but...

LIFE 101

list you priorities

if you never find time for them then they are not truly your priorities.

tooooo bad for her i guess.

So she can play this game too.

The M-Word has a blog too. It is interesting to read and I feel like a cyber stalker but, oh well. It is interesting how things have changed.




Here is a post from June 24, 2004 (about 2 months after Babe and I started dating.  I changed the names to protect the childish, including me):


Well, things are good, Lil’Boy and I have been together about 5 months now, and he is so great! At first we fought a little, but lately we are always happy to see each other and he is super with the boys. Better dad than their biological father, he is an ass. He stopped paying me child support and I wont let him see the boys until he decides to pay me again. I truly hate their dad, I wish he would just jump in front of a bus. But hey what can you do? I got a new job, serving. I always go back to it. I guess I am meant to do it. Hopefully within the year I will be married. Cross your fingers for me!


[it's Caribel here] by the by, he only did not pay her once and it was because he changed jobs other than that he gave her 250 a week, worked 7 days a week and had the boys at least 3 nights a week! The child support was not court ordered he paid her because that is what she said she needed. Oh yeah and she has paid no support in the 2 years they have been with us.  Also, she was still married to Babe at the time, but yet she crossing her fingers that she will be married to the barely 18 boy who would have just graduated high school had he not dropped out.  She was 23 back then.




Now here is one from today, (oh how the tables have turned):


My boys. I have not been the best of mom's to them. I am going to make it up to them. They don't see me like they used to and it scares me. I probably made a big mistake by letting them go live with their dad. If I dont see them it doesn't hurt as bad b/c out of sight out of mind, right? Well, I have been looking at lots of pics [That I sent her] and stuff recently and now I am hurting. Sugar doesn't even like me, and he is 6 in October. I don't want him to like Caribel Renee more than he does me. Boys need their moms. I am so confused by my life and the paths I have chosen. They are a big part of why I dont want anymore kids. I would feel horrible doing that to them.




[I’s me again] We’ll see.  It was not a mistake for her to send the boys to their father, because he saw the at least 3 times overnight per week when the “lived” with her.  She shows up maybe once a month and she hasn’t had them overnight in a year!