Now a non-custodial pseudomom…but not the normal way

Babe, met a woman about a month ago.  She has a job and lives in a nice house…blah blah blah.  Well long story short he took the boys and is now living with her.

Our relationship had been over for a long while, but I would have stayed with him forever to raise my boys.  Now some other woman will get to tuck them in and say their bedtime stories and help them with their homework.  I would love to say that I was not dying right now, but I am.

I love my boys.  Babe says that I am still the closest thing that they have to a mom and that I can see them whenever I want, but I do not even get to know where they live, because the new woman knows I hate her and I guess thinks I would slash her tires or something (as if I would be that stupid).

I actually feel that this woman has done me a favor, but that doesn’t mean that I like females who act like they are your friends when they are really trying to take your family.

He holds all the cards and I have to behave myself.

Unemployed

I was laid off today…

It is very scary, I support a family of 4, and Babe’s uncle also lives here. Uncle D works, but not on a regular basis, so sometimes I support him too. I received a severance, but it is not much.

In this economy, being jobless is terrifying and I hope to find a job soon.

There are also repairs that I have to make to the house I am renting. There was some water damage and instead of calling the landlord Babe, decided to fix it himself and well, he tends to destroy all that he touches (but I love him anyway). Therefore, there goes some of the money before we can even think of moving into a cheaper place.

I have been hard up before, but not desperately so. All I’ve had to worry about is getting the boys things they want not feeding them.

It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas.

There are great people in this world!

I joined a forum specifically dedicated to childless stepmoms.

I added a topic about my situation with not being able to afford Christmas and the m-word getting a boob job (maybe?).  I wasn’t asking for anything, just writing out my thoughts, to see what others thought about my situation.

Well, I got a reply from another childless stepmom like me, offering me her PSP!!!!!!

All she wanted in return was to be updated on the boob job stuff.  So we could laugh and roll our eyes J.  I am so freaking astonished…there truly are great people in this wild selfish world!

I love this site and I love these women!  It was so great that I found women in similar situations as I am.  It is so great to know that others have to deal with the same crap that I do ( that sound sadistic); rephrase: 

I am just glad to have people that understand what I am going through.