Finding Comfort and being uncomfortable about it.

So...last night...yep

I wound up going to see a man that I have known since I was 13. I will call him Darling. He has always been a close friend and cuddle buddy.

He was trying to comfort me so we snuggled up and watched Twilight.

Well let me just say...we did more than cuddle...

Now I am confused,

o What if Babe wants to comeback, would I take him in order to get my boys back?
o Am I happy taking this step with Darling?
o Will it hurt Darling if I decide that I just want to friends again?
o Can we just be friends again?
o Was I just emotional?
o Did he take advantage of me, although I made the first move ;)?

DAMN IT! Caribel, what did you get yourself into!

New Park!

I am sitting at this new park I found. It is great the boys have a lake to swim in or the can play on the playground or there is a miny water park for $1 a person! This is great I am so happy about our move!
But why do boys play in the weeds.  I was a tomboy with the best of them, but I hate late weeds....They hoped in them looked for minoes....It was gross, but I felt peer pressured in to wading in with them.  It is sad that I feel peer pressured by my boys.  I haven't quite decided if that means I still have a childs spirit or it I am one of those pathetic parents who just wants their kids to think they are cool.  Oh, well I guess I should get use to gross stuff.....except bugs...yuck!